As you know that i was eagerly waiting for my birthday as it was my 18th birthday,i thought that it will be most enjoyable day, i will have some fun today.

but suddenly all dreams went away! dad got some important work so he went to his camp the day before my birthday! so i had to manage all and everything,and mom was looking so out and was not interested in these all matter. i was really feeling bad, as i was thinking that its my birthday and i am doing every things for my own happiness its not good, its the responsibility of parents also , that how will they celebrate the day for their child, but what to do my parents are always busy in their work, not only today but its common in every year.

but this year i dont know whats wrong, none of them wished me, my every mates wished me but i was waiting for their wishes, but nop. my friends were asking for party, but due to this condition i told them that this year am not going to have party, i didn't celebrate it and left my b"day cake in freeze as it you are looking in the pic. i heard that every child is special to their parents, but i think i am not, i am not a good child to them, i am not a good guy for my friends, i am not a good human, just a selfish. may be i am so worst thats why i did it. as i cry daily but today i thought that i will smile for a while but even today i cried a lot and this was more bad day then other days. yeah it will be so memorable as i thought. or may be my thinking was wrong that they dont wanna celebrate, well sorry for what ever i said, its bad to blame parents, i should blame myself due to my irritating nature nobody likes me. am so bad

Hey today is 7th may, and day after tomorrow i have my birthday! i mean on 9th may. I am eagerly waiting for the wishes of my friends and parents! i hope this birthday will be memorable and enjoyable. because i will turn into 18.

well last night suchi suddenly asked me that, do i love someone? even she had putted her sware on me to get the answer. as in really i dont know I am in love or not, but with whom i will love? because except suchi i dont love anyone, but she is my best friend and we dont see each other as a lover, she got confused by my answer.

by the way what ever i think on myself, i am not so good, i think i dont have the ability to cary on the responsibility of love, even i dont smile of my own, then how would i make smile of other? i am so bad, sometimes i feel that whoever will comes in my life her life will be boring or spoiled, i dont know why? !

but i am just waiting for someone who will love me truly, and express her love to me and can understand me because i am little bit weird person.

because suppose i like a girl and we have a such a nice friendship with each-other ,but she view me as a friend only, then if i will tell her that i likes her, then she will be upset and even our friendship will be drowning , that why i am just waiting for a girl to say me love truly.i will sacrifice my everything for her love, hey one more thing i have my cute pie my dearest friend my best friend suchi, for her i can sacrifice my life too!!!