MISSING SOMEONE

building a relationship with anyone is so easy , but to carry on the relation is so tough! its just been around two weeks , I able to contact with my best friend , as i heard that she was ill last week i was so worried that time, and in this week is back to pune, but still i am not getting any message any text from her , even nobody of her family member is not replying me that where is she , is she alright or not!
i am really tensed and really feeling very bad!! she never understand that how much i love her , how much i am always worried about her! every day and day i am going like crazy without her message. but nobody understand me , what to do , every day i cry for her, and when i see her photo my heart starts to beat like crazy , and i feel ri8 now i will go near her but...... her single text msg makes me relax whole the day!
its in my fortune people who comes so close to my heart they always go away or leaves me , i have survived so much pain due to these reason, but if she will do the same then i swear i will kill myself , i dont find anyone yet with whom i can share these words, m very unlucky, so bad i am! :( :( :(